Monday, May 2, 2011

Journey to Pregnancy: Waiting some more and fighting anxiety

I am starting to get a little more nervous about the test on Thursday.  I guess maybe nervous isn't the right word I should be using.  I am extremely excited to find out the result.  This is a demon that I am battling though due to the past experience.  It's hard to let go of the fear of another dreaded phone call.  I just can't think like that.  I am thinking about getting some pregnancy tests and start taking them tomorrow.  Just take one a day and know that if it is a negative result that means it is probably too early to tell.

My acupuncturist said that I have been connected to my baby for weeks now so she asked me when I sat still and thought, "how was my baby?" how did it feel?  I also need to focus on sending love to my womb instead of anxiety.  I feel I've done an ok job, I just think I've had more people asking me about it lately so it's causing my anxiety to go up just a bit.

I've had some pressure in my womb the last couple days and the need to pee. haha.  I won't even tell ya how many times I had to rush to the restroom today.   I've been on the verges of happiness w/ tears.  I've also been extremely tired.

I'm just ready to know for sure.  My gut says that this will be good news.  My mind is the one that is being a jerk about it.  

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